(Not) An Ode to Past Lovers

It has been so long since I have been heldby a man who respects women.I have been in their beds,no sheets, dust settling like a sheen on my body. Men who took.They promised me delicate adoration,but I was left used and pressed into the mattresslike an old flower between the pages of a worn book,Continue reading “(Not) An Ode to Past Lovers”

The Lost King of Sweet Adventures

One of my favorite games to play as a child was Candy Land. I always had to be the plastic, cartoonish blue gingerbread man. Each card I pulled sent me on an adventure and I marveled over getting to travel to the Lollipop Woods or through the Candy Cane Forest. It was a whimsical fantasyContinue reading “The Lost King of Sweet Adventures”

The Unwitnessed

There are moments at 6:33 a.m. where I’m drinking my matcha latte and watching the sun come up that I wish someone was sitting across from me. Enjoying the moment with me. I’ve lived alone for so long. I am comfortable and enjoy my own company. I don’t feel lonely 95% or the time, butContinue reading “The Unwitnessed”

Bonds We Build & Break

Lately, early mornings have given me time to spend time appreciating myself more. I’ll read, I’ll write, drink cacao like a ritual and move my body in ceremony to honor another sunrise. This space I’ve carved out for myself also gives me to time to reflect and connect with the people I can still feel.Continue reading “Bonds We Build & Break”

Haunted By Ghosts

I am haunted by ghosts.Different versions of my past selvespopping in, out of my lifeto remind me how far I’ve come. The girl who didn’t want to liveThe girl who felt no one wanted herThe woman who tried to let others know her, but no one really listened.The woman who fell in loveThe woman whoContinue reading “Haunted By Ghosts”

The Hollowness of Being

To fill up our days with meaning with the smell of coffee in the morning and the gentle caress of soft sheets against the skin. To the feeling of dipping your toes in scalding water (a test) before submerging a body so desperate for warmth under the rippling water, wishing it would consume and fillContinue reading “The Hollowness of Being”

The Great Conditioning

Who was I before the world got its hands on me? On my body, my mind, my emotions, my self-worth? I feel like I’ve been run through the washing machine 1,347 times and come out a version of myself I don’t recognize 20% of the time. Granted, I give myself immense credit for the versionContinue reading “The Great Conditioning”

Beneath The Wisdom Of Trees

These days, my favorite moments are spent pressing my body into soft grass and gazing up at the sun that beams down between hundreds of delicate, green leaves. I never meant for it to become a ritual – almost instinctual in how I crave a certain spot, a certain tree to bring me peace andContinue reading “Beneath The Wisdom Of Trees”

Admissions from the Notes App

Puzzle Pieces We are given thousands of puzzle pieces at the start of our lives. It is up to us to attempt to put together, to create something beautiful out of what we’ve been given. The puzzle is never perfect – the pieces may not always fit the way we want them to, but weContinue reading “Admissions from the Notes App”