Turn on, Tune In, Burn Out

“I’m good. Just been busy.” If I had a dollar for every time I’ve heard that phrase or said it myself I’d be retired and sipping a cocktail in the Maldives already. Alas, I am not retired. Just tired. Mentally and emotionally. Which has translated into some very fun physical manifestations. The past couple ofContinue reading “Turn on, Tune In, Burn Out”

No Lifeguard on Duty

Lately, life has felt like being in a giant swimming pool and I’m not swimming or having much fun. In fact, I’m drowning. A fatal problem, but if I’m allowed the awareness that I’m drowning, I know that I’ve reached my edge. Once I’ve come up against my edge, I know now is the timeContinue reading “No Lifeguard on Duty”

Midnight Kids

I once rolled down a hill in a grocery cart. I was willingly pushed by a friend and screamed my head off the whole way down. It’s a fond memory of days when life seemed full of assurances and endless possibilities. When I was younger, it felt like there were infinite days ahead just likeContinue reading “Midnight Kids”

The Moody Blues

Watching the rain fall outside my window has to be one of my favorite activities. I’ve sat here for the past hour, watching the rain drops fall, the cars pass and reflecting on this past weekend and the conversations it brought. The religious conversation with my sister who was feeling real good after 5 glassesContinue reading “The Moody Blues”

Greetings from the Notes App

The human experience is fucking visceral and heartbreaking. Beautiful despite its tragedy. It feels like nothing and everything as I see things through the lens of the day to day, the minutia. I so badly yearn to feel loved in my life by others – the love I give to them so freely, that I’mContinue reading “Greetings from the Notes App”

The Waiting Room

Do you ever replay a song over and over to the point where the meaning of the song starts to change? “Alexa, please play ‘Oceans’ by Seafret.” You see, I’ve played this song many times before. It always makes me think of a certain person I care deeply for. Those feelings haven’t changed, but aContinue reading “The Waiting Room”

Protect Your Ecosystem

The turn of a new month has me questioning everything. I can sit here and sip my rose cacao latte (treat yourself) and tell you there is forward momentum happening, but the truth is I feel like I am playing a solo game of Sorry! right now and the moment I take one step forward,Continue reading “Protect Your Ecosystem”

Know Your Worth. Then Add Tax.

Today has been one of those days that has me opening long closed doors to the past. I spent a beautiful, but brief time at my favorite park reading a new book. Laying in the sun, observing the breeze, the people tossing a frisbee a mere 100 feet or so from me and I evenContinue reading “Know Your Worth. Then Add Tax.”

Safety Not Guaranteed

How do we practice intimacy with others? No, this isn’t a post about sex. I want to know about your emotional intimacy and what makes you feel safe enough with your loved ones, friends and even yourself to be vulnerable and truly open up. “I’m fine” only works the first 1,000 times you say it.Continue reading “Safety Not Guaranteed”

Felt Introspective, Might Delete Later

April 27th, 2003. It has been 18 years since and every year that passes, I feel further removed from the significance this day holds for me. The gravity of this day has now been filled with deep gratitude and self-reflection. 18 years ago, as a young teenager, I made a decision. Now, as an adultContinue reading “Felt Introspective, Might Delete Later”