Beneath The Wisdom Of Trees

These days, my favorite moments are spent pressing my body into soft grass and gazing up at the sun that beams down between hundreds of delicate, green leaves. I never meant for it to become a ritual – almost instinctual in how I crave a certain spot, a certain tree to bring me peace andContinue reading “Beneath The Wisdom Of Trees”

Admissions from the Notes App

Puzzle Pieces We are given thousands of puzzle pieces at the start of our lives. It is up to us to attempt to put together, to create something beautiful out of what we’ve been given. The puzzle is never perfect – the pieces may not always fit the way we want them to, but weContinue reading “Admissions from the Notes App”

We Were Golden

We were golden like the leaves that fell around us. Lost, but content with the quiet that comes with no direction in mind. I let you in. Revealed myself to be more than what you bargained for. Amongst the leaves we fell. You wanted me to be yours but I can only belong to myself.Continue reading “We Were Golden”

The Glass Upon Which We Walk

I recently found a part of my past I thought I lost. A simple, vintage perfume bottle. You see, my grandmother used to be an antique dealer. I would visit her as a young child at work. I would climb the old, wood and creek-ridden steps to where she was and get lost among allContinue reading “The Glass Upon Which We Walk”

Isolation Island

Since the pandemic hit, I feel like I’ve created my own island for myself. Where I feel safe, can open the doors to the ghosts that demand attention and heal the parts of myself I long ago buried. You see, we are all haunted by something. Some days we don’t think of it at all.Continue reading “Isolation Island”

Try A Little Tenderness

Sundays always remind me of the promises I made to myself once the work day is done on Friday afternoons. On Fridays, I set all these goals for myself for the weekend. To clean, To do laundry, to prep meals. None of it ever happens. I get lost in stories. Consume the words of poetsContinue reading “Try A Little Tenderness”

The Places You Have Come To Fear the Most

A couple of months ago, I wrote about my cat, Mr. Buckley. Tonight, I write to tell you and to grieve the fact he is no longer here. As soon as I left the vet clinic, empty carrier in hand, the skies opened up and poured rain the whole way home. It felt a bitContinue reading “The Places You Have Come To Fear the Most”

At The Golden Gate

At the Golden Gate I remembered. My feet carried me forward, but my mind pulled me back down. Back to you. The way your smile lit up my surroundings and you were the only one I could see. The way your words felt like a soft caress against my skin. How I wanted to breatheContinue reading “At The Golden Gate”

Afraid of the Dark

My therapist suggested I start this blog. So, I did. Against every fiber of my being and the deep ache in my bones that was content in bottling up all my emotions until my emotional well overflowed. I dragged myself out of my comfort zone and decided to start writing again – even if itContinue reading “Afraid of the Dark”

Reality Bites

“Hello, this is Lauren. She’s not here right now, but if you leave your name and your number, she might get back to you.” I had a realization at around 2:45 a.m. Saturday: I’ve been dissociating for at least 4 business days. The situation is delicate and I’ve spent the time since trying to findContinue reading “Reality Bites”