The Unwitnessed

There are moments at 6:33 a.m. where I’m drinking my matcha latte and watching the sun come up that I wish someone was sitting across from me. Enjoying the moment with me. I’ve lived alone for so long. I am comfortable and enjoy my own company. I don’t feel lonely 95% or the time, butContinue reading “The Unwitnessed”

A Constriction of the Soul

Deep pockets of gloom,anger sits like a sieve on the soil (soul).You are alone in this uncertain place. To acknowledge a life that is broken,seams frayed like the edgesof your forgotten joy,discarded on a shelf 20 years ago.It is time to dig yourself out of this nightmaredisguised as a dream.A dream down a rabbit holeContinue reading “A Constriction of the Soul”

Bonds We Build & Break

Lately, early mornings have given me time to spend time appreciating myself more. I’ll read, I’ll write, drink cacao like a ritual and move my body in ceremony to honor another sunrise. This space I’ve carved out for myself also gives me to time to reflect and connect with the people I can still feel.Continue reading “Bonds We Build & Break”

Haunted By Ghosts

I am haunted by ghosts.Different versions of my past selvespopping in, out of my lifeto remind me how far I’ve come. The girl who didn’t want to liveThe girl who felt no one wanted herThe woman who tried to let others know her, but no one really listened.The woman who fell in loveThe woman whoContinue reading “Haunted By Ghosts”

The Hollowness of Being

To fill up our days with meaning with the smell of coffee in the morning and the gentle caress of soft sheets against the skin. To the feeling of dipping your toes in scalding water (a test) before submerging a body so desperate for warmth under the rippling water, wishing it would consume and fillContinue reading “The Hollowness of Being”

The Great Conditioning

Who was I before the world got its hands on me? On my body, my mind, my emotions, my self-worth? I feel like I’ve been run through the washing machine 1,347 times and come out a version of myself I don’t recognize 20% of the time. Granted, I give myself immense credit for the versionContinue reading “The Great Conditioning”

Slow Your Own Sacrifice

There’s a story of mine that has gone untold for almost 20 years. A repressed moment that broke through my tender memory while making breakfast. A padded room. I was 14 and the most angry I’ve ever been in my life. I spent time in a padded room when I was 14. No, there aren’tContinue reading “Slow Your Own Sacrifice”

Beneath The Wisdom Of Trees

These days, my favorite moments are spent pressing my body into soft grass and gazing up at the sun that beams down between hundreds of delicate, green leaves. I never meant for it to become a ritual – almost instinctual in how I crave a certain spot, a certain tree to bring me peace andContinue reading “Beneath The Wisdom Of Trees”

Admissions from the Notes App

Puzzle Pieces We are given thousands of puzzle pieces at the start of our lives. It is up to us to attempt to put together, to create something beautiful out of what we’ve been given. The puzzle is never perfect – the pieces may not always fit the way we want them to, but weContinue reading “Admissions from the Notes App”

We Were Golden

We were golden like the leaves that fell around us. Lost, but content with the quiet that comes with no direction in mind. I let you in. Revealed myself to be more than what you bargained for. Amongst the leaves we fell. You wanted me to be yours but I can only belong to myself.Continue reading “We Were Golden”